Post by {Riddle}--♥ on May 14, 2008 18:42:23 GMT -5
Rain spluttered down to the ground, pouring from the skies in a violent storm. Gusts of wind bursted around the park and breezed quickly past things, causing rushes of cool air to hit the pelts of dogs all around. It was certainly chilly outside, and the temperatures promised a cold drop again, reminding everyone of the trecherous winter. But at least it was forming to be sunny and warm, and everyone looked forward to that. If a little rain meant a lot of sunshine, Riddle would welcome the wet splashes like she'd welcome Jiro back into her life; Unsurely but happily.
A pretty american foxhound darted out from underneath a rusty red slide and flashed toward another shelter. Soon enough, she had darted under the plastic blue covering of a bridge; One of the many playthings of those strange humans; The humans who nearly killed them all, but also nearly saved them with their gasoline. Raindrops still managed to hit her silky pelt, though, which made her frustrated and agitated. She absentmindedly muttered something under her breath, and looked around with her ears flattened. Everything was wet and dirty and.... wet. Although she very occasionally liked to swim, she did not like getting very wet this often. She just wished that it would get warm and stay that way, without all this disgusting rain falling down and splattering on her pelt whenever it wanted to. Feeling stupid and silly for thinking about things such as this when there were much, much more important things to think about, Riddle shook her head and glared off into the distance, hatered for her own life sinking into her gaze.
Self-pity and sadness for herself weren't things that Riddle really had in her. She didn't have the boldness for even that at the moment. All she could really feel at the moment is hatered and anger. Somehow, she felt like all of this was her fault. Although it was a silly idea, Riddle was very serious and just knew that it was her fault that Jiro had been taken away from her. When he got bitten, she should have defended him instead of just standing there in terror. It should have been her who was bitten. Or better yet, killed. She sighed. "I don't deserve to live this life," She muttered under her breath. She knew she was going to die at some point anyway, and she knew that her life was pointless. Nothing important would ever happen in her life, so she'd just be wasting space in this world. This was a one-way road for her at the moment, and she had never really thought about the gray area in between the black and white. She though that she may as well die now before she does something else stupid or senseless. Riddle sighed once more and looked around for any trace of another dog. But no scent lingered at all, and so she sat in silence as she thought of possible ways to die quickly while still making the murderer amused by her death. Hm...
Standing up and walking out into the rain, Riddle thought for the first time of what her parents-parent- would feel like if she died. Would they be angry with her efforts to die so quickly? Would they be sad about her death? Would they... She shivered. Would they avenge her death? For the first time in a long time, Riddle began to see the gray areas of this twisted plan of hers. Perhaps she should think more about this before deciding what she wants to do with her life. By now her pelt was soaked, but she was still in a daydream and wondering about those silver and gray areas where things would get messy. And, for the first time, she wondered why she really wanted to die, why she couldn't just see the brighter side of things anymore. Riddle sighed again and sat down in the pouring rain, wrapping her tail around her paws. She had so much to think about.
[♥]+total words; 689
[♥]+roleplay words; 671
[♥]+muse & status; good, finished.
[♥]+character mood; depressed and somewhat cranky.
[♥]+comments; aww. what an emo. </3